it is my decision

It is funny how various thoughts and fears get in the way of my one big desire. I really want to draw right now. I want to find an image and begin drawing. So much of me wants to sit down with my graphite pencils and create the eyes, the face, the fabrics, the character of Bhutan. I want to let my hands do the thing that they really enjoy doing and see what appears on the paper. The only problem is the nagging fear that hits me when I think about drawing. I am afraid that the others will think that my direction is too contained and not daring enough. But who defines daring anyway? Who decides what is "out of the box" and worth pursuing? I feel that although my direction may be a bit more on the traditional side of drawing, it is still worthy of being nurtured and brought out. Maybe my drawings won't be contemporary or obscene enough for some people, but this is what I want to do, something that I have always wanted to do, and I am going to do it.